I’m way behind writing a blog post. I should’ve written one last week. Things are crazy and confusing around here. It’s like I’m stuck in the fog on some cold island in the North Atlantic and I don’t know when I’ll see the sun again. At this moment it feels like it won’t come out, like in that movie 30 Days of Night. But my 30 days have felt like MONTHS!
I feel overwhelmed.
I signed up to a bunch of 30 day challenges. Bad idea. *Hem, hem*. Shut up, Dolores! Sorry about that… where was I? Oh, yeah, I signed up to a bunch of challenges and those overwhelm me. There’s A Sale a Day Challenge, 30DayswithaK Writing Challenge and 28 Days to Make. That’s WAAAAAY too much! *Hem, hem*. I swear, Dolores, if you don’t stop now…
See? Little Dolores Umbridge keeps nagging in my head because she knows I’ve taken on a LOT!
And then, there’s the Bullet Journal I just started. I’m doing it so I can organise myself better when my brain can’t, but I feel such a BuJo envy because mine ain’t pretty enough.
I have watched, read, listened to so many “motivational” speeches in the last days and still I feel stuck… and hungry. Does anyone have some popcorn? Potato chips will do, too. And please, could you bring the Sriracha while you’re at it? And some lemons? Thank you!
My brain fog doesn’t go away. It’s like, I know what I want to do, what I want to accomplish but I lost my map and I’m wandering around the Forbidden Forest with no way out.
Yet I keep moving to some unknown destination. I have tons of doubts. And I’m nervous. And scared, too. They say it’s better to keep moving. Yes, duh! Do you think I want to stick around when the Acromantulas get here? NO WAY!
If I could just make my brain change in the right direction. Believe me, I try. Every day. It’s exhausting.
I just need a break from Dolores, you know. A big one. A break from all those courses and speeches and whatnot’s. And just do SOMETHING. Figure it out. I guess that’s why I started drawing again, why I got a coloring book. To give my brain a break.
I’ve been so focused on the business side of things -things I haven’t even applied yet- that I have had no time to create, hence the challenges.
All I can do, at this very moment, is simplify. Do one challenge and write down everything else in my bullet journal, because aside from my eyesight getting weaker, my brain is starting to forget things more often (being an adult sucks sometimes).
Maybe after one completed challenge, things will start to get brighter again and I might find my way back to Hogwarts.
Have a great one, wherever you are.
P.S. Sorry for that rant. I had to vent. Badly. ?